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note:Please skip this chunky paragraph if you like to. thank you.)
so my assumptions that time were true afterall.
my god, how slick you are. all those words you told me were fucking excuses to get rid of me, to fasten the pace to replace me with another. i was just a stupid weeny catalyst. well, *applause* bravo, "policeman". you pulled it off well. i didnt see it through that time. i thought the world of you. i goddamn cried for you. i thought you really really loved me. you told me i was everything, i was too perfect. well screw all that. you are indeed a mastermind of all lies and deceit. you're bloody good at that. your words are all lies. how maliciously slick a man can be? i pity the other who comes after me, who comes after her and so on and so forth. almost three bloody years i wasted. three fucking years of what? love? no. of lies and pretense. well you know what? you told me you didnt want to hurt me anymore so you suggested oh-so gallantly that we should be separated. oh, how i fell for that sympathetic tone of yours. i believed YOU, dammnit. well guess what? you've ended up hurting me like never before. bravo, bravo. i so do not want to have anything to do with you anymore. you was never in my past. and i hope we will never cross our paths in the future again. to me, you dont exist. because if you do, you're just a reminder of how weak a woman can be when it comes to love. of how a man can easily break you, snap snap, just like that. you go your way, i go my way. leave it like that forever and i'll be the happiest woman on earth.-----------------
that was a morning shoutout.
God, you've no idea how relieved and better i feel after saying that out. *breathes out calmly* and i dont give a damn if he reads this or not. let him be embarassed or whatever. see if i care. he didnt care when he embarassed me in front of my friends last time. so ? for what? it wont change anything. i just hope that he'll change, you know? God knows how many other women out there he's gonna break. urgh just the thought of it makes me frigging disgusted. but im glad i came out from that nightmare. im okay. im good. im cool. something good always comes out from something bad.
and i still believe in true love. no man will bring me down that low no more. you know that marion raven song's Break You. ah, perfect song right now =)
anyway anyway, on a really good side, Boytoy if you're reading this, ahahaha, thats a really short and sweet post. thanks yeah,i had a great time too =) your cute designer hair looks the same in your pictures sey, haha! except the back part is longer. heh. i hope ive converted you into a subway cookie fan heh. next time, JB you say? insya allah. get the green bike quick, then we can go eat satay in JB as early as 3am lol. if you can psycho my father to let me, that is. ahahaha.
and mr Punk. kau merepek ar telephone aku bile aku tengah2 jiwang pat esplanade. ingatkan aper emergency call. chey.hahaha. biler masa aku owe kau frappucino ni?! my mocha frappe, you punk! jangan lupa okays, sampai mati aku takkan lupe, haha.
to Kinah babe, tell viknash i cannot marry him la. what the. ahahahaha. i know he has gotten his pink card finally. he even said he doesnt care about the prata man who has chop me for marriage. giler ar dier hahahaa. flirt 24 hours, tak habis2 lol. do organize that gathering you're talking about,yeap babe, cant wait to see everybody again.
and to ms elizabeth djong aifen. i miss you, i really do, babe. looking forward to seeing you *hugs*
then finally, mr Dimples. thank you. there are so many things i want to say to you but i rather say it to you in person so that i can see those twinkling eyes and that lovely smile. i dont have to say the words, you know it when i just look at you without a reason. and dont ask me "What?" la. hahaha spoiler.
and to the bloggers especially uncle sha, LOL, i'll try and do something about the tagboard yep. thanks for the email btw, very nice of you, made me really paisey =p thank you, you for reading this post to this very end.
have a great weekend!
*grumbles* got to bathe for work. urgh.
come away with me..
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