welcome all.
i simply couldnt resist not blogging. its like, part of my life.
and throwing away that would be throwing away another piece of life's essential components so yeah.
i cant imagine when im 60, wrinkled fingers and still on blogger, updating you guys on my sex life.
hah. joking laaa. sheeesh. dont get too excited.
okay next.
wouldnt be here if not for the many loving people around me.
shakinah khan my gorgeous saviour, i owe you my everything big time. elizabeth djong,i love you big time,sweetheart
sue,i enjoy your comapany big time! siti diyana bte zulkeply, you are my cutest darling big time. my mother, you are my everything, you are my inspiration big time.
plus all the tags and emails(uncle sha,thanks!)and sms-es and friendster msg-es from unknown men(?). yeah, amusing but very,very sweet.
so yeah. new chapter. new style of life. no black veil.
heck, im still so frigging young. not yet 20? why throw my life away eh.
im still dead keen of not believing in falling in love.
but heyyyy, doesnt mean i dont believe in fun dating =p
*grins*
town yesterday was a riot with eliz.
we sat outside Tangs till midnight and listened and shook our legs to good music.
today? a distant cousin got hitched and the kendarat were hot guys in black who kept glancing so danking obviously. one even went to stand in front of the cocktail's bowl where i was happily taking(free food lerr!).
BUT my Zulus(parents) were there so yeaaah. spoiler spoiler spoiler spoiler.
people, WATCH THIS SPACE okay.
watch me have my piece of fun =)
watch me and go have your regrets/sorrow somewhere else.
though it hurts. it really hurts. im saying all these but it hurts like fucking hell. cuz its like as if i was never part of his life, the way he's moving on. who i am anyway? no one special. no one he had ever loved. it hurts. it does.
move on move on move on move on move on.i. am. not. gonna. grieve.